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blog times two. if i thought things would end up this way, id have quit long ago. for real, can I get a minute where the stress does not pour on me like hurricane katrina on louisiana. so last night the whole vernon situation blew up in my face. i knew that by telling nic that it happened things would never be the same but i didnt want it to happen this way. im pretty sure he wants me dead. he says he doesnt but if the situation was flipped what would i think? i would think not good things....i dont know what to think so ill come back to this later.


not that anyone gives two shits about my opinions but i have some relationship ones. ive been in two long term ones and ive been thinking about maybe looking for someone again on the relationship front. but come on here girls, have some god damned individuality. if you have to ask for permission every time you step to the left thats not a relationship its a dictatorship. since when did society decide that its the man who gets to decide EVERYTHING. whats for dinner, what to watch on TV, what to do, what not to do, this or that, where to go, what to wear, blue toothbrush or green toothbrush, do you want another drink?????? why is it that a woman has to ask her man "can i" rather than let him know "i am". ladies, are we truly that afraid of losing our man because he didnt want us to have a margarita with the girls after work? because he wanted you to come straight home and do his wash, make his dinner, give him sex and go to bed? if he cant accept that you are a person not property than maybe, just maybe he doesnt deserve you. but what happens whe he has a night with the boys? is it the same? why not? but i dont blame the men. i blame the women. for letting them. keep your individuality, leave a little mystery, intrigue, dont give him everything. because then he doesnt have anything to gain and when he gets bored, theres a million other women out there that arent giving him everything...